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Thursday, May 26, 2011

Alone

I feel all alone. When I see couples being really sweet to each other, I am lost for words that can express my feelings. I tried to ignore. When I do see it again, my heart shook and tears rolled from my eyes. Nights after nights oh God, haven’t I cried enough? My pillows are soaked in tears of the ache of longing for someone to love. I do not understand why I ache that much. This isn’t something I can’t live without. Many singles survived. Why can’t I? Why do I long for that someone so much? I do not understand, God. The pain seems too much for me.

I know it clearly that only Your love satisfy the most. I actually do not need anyone else, when I have You. I just don’t understand why I’m aching so much whenever it comes to this issue.
This post was birth at the moment when I saw a picture on Mr. Brown’s blog. This is ridiculous and heartbreaking at the same time.

Why do I need sunglasses? To shade away my tears..

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

My Walk. Although I might not be a fan of the sports of football, I'm about to give an analogy to do with it. There's one thing that football teams does after their match, without fail; to evaluate their match. How more important is it for us to evaluate our walk with God.

Hunger. Recently, I've been really hungry for the Word. I read in Scriptures, on Biblegateway, on Web sources, books, etc. I myself am surprised. Precisely, when the Holy Spirit wants a hold of you, He makes you come to Him.

For the past 7months, I've been seeking Him. I just want more and more of Him and less of me. Looking back, I could see His work in my life; the transformation I could never imagine. I could discern better and have a better perspective of life. It doesn't mean that my life was really smooth without a trace of challenge. Life goes on. I still get scolded occassionally from my seniors, parents, and I still ran into uncommon people that gives me trouble. Well, it happens. However, what had change was my response. My responding-emotions to these circumstances. God mould my emotions! And I actually look at these situations differently.

Having said that, this doesn't mean that I'm there and I can sit back relax and need no more of the Bible, of church, etc. That's not true! I'm still constantly working on surrendering my all to Him, dying to self, and stepping into obedience for Him. I can never say that I'm there and forever will I be there. Truth be told. God is working on us everyday, and what He needs is our submissive spirit & attitude. Why does He work on us? Truth to be told: There's something really special in us that He has created, and He wants to work on it in our lives, because He loves us! (You must be smiling when you read this!) =)

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Mini Birthday Outing with Sister since she'll be away in camp during my actual day.

Mini treat for myself....a new dress:

Inside the christmas tree:

Into the bells:

Friday, October 16, 2009

Glitter Word Generator

Sunday, September 27, 2009

How much is enough?

Trying to fight between the walls of fillial piety and practicality.

I wished I could give her paradise, but I also know at the back of my mind that it wouldn't do her very good. I wished I could spoil her, but I knew I shouldn't. And what's more I don't have enough to please what she asks for. From a new employee's point of view, only earning her first 2 months' pay, how much can she give?

Unless God gives me another fortune. My job is already a fortune from Him. Is there another to satisfy her? I asked for another fortune to fulfill faith promises and mission promises, but not to quench someone's thirst. Please Lord, tell me what's right? How much is enough? 1/3 of my salary for her that she's asking, is that reasonable? Is it reasonable for me to struggle through even my meals?

I've not spent anything on clothes, cosmetics, etc from my first pay. Except for a mini-handphone pouch which cost me less than 10 bucks.

Fillial piety or reality? Lord, You know best how much I need, and the limit I should place in giving. Why doesn't dad has a problem to how much I give?

I'm so so in-love with his voice after seeing his appearance!