SHE.HER.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Laughing at myself. How can I emulate someone whom I only saw a performance of? I may not know inside out personally. But what I see in the character during the performance I can learn from there. Confidence, charisma, independent and firm.

I've also been up to looking for better clothes for my size. And hence it was fun exploring!!

Monday, June 29, 2009

WOW! It was an eye-opening session. It was truly my first time watching such concerts. We had to queue almost for 30mins before entering into the Expo Hall 1. And that was where I had my exams. For a moment, walking it seems kinda stressful yet different. Bcoz inside are no tables and chairs with the LARGE CLOCK to check time. I went into a whole greater atmosphere of people cheering, excited, laughing, snacking away. Inside was quite dark, so we had to find seats really properly. The whole Hall looks SO COOL! It has black curtains, large spot lightings, so many cameras everywhere. And there's Nathaniel Ho who is seated within our midst. Haha!

Didn't have the chance to snap pictures because I had to leave earlier. Well nevermind. At least the guo-chen was great. =)

Friday, June 26, 2009

It was really fun going out with Esther, then came Trina. And towards 5.30pm, Waikay and Nicky appeared as well. Haha!! We had fun laughing at each other, running through NTUC, and searching for space in Food Court.

Cool. Hanging out with friends in my home town, Jurong Point. So awesome.

Was enjoying the mini-extra lunch set at Delifrance. Croissant eye mayo plus mash potatoes, etc. Bcoz both esther and I can't eat solid foods for the next few weeks. Hence, we're eating really soft foods. Haha!! I had to force myself to eat yong tau fu during dinner. Which I don't like its plain-est.

But was fun hanging out at the bus berth waiting for the bus 157 and kept singing there like no body's biz. Haha!! Fun time watching dance videos with Trina on her ipod. haha.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

I guess I'll have to wait for another YWA. At least this round my mum's disapproving because of a valid reason, about H1N1. And I don't wanna rebel and argue further. I've prayed about it. Anyway, if she changed her mind next 2days, it's still lai-de-ji.

This season I've been shown to the different areas I need breakthrough and need to overcome. Yay! I've been working on it. Though sometimes I still struggle alittle with my emotions. And had to kept speaking in tongues and pray in alignment.

Yay! This afternoon will be so fun. I'm meeting up with Esther and Trina at Jurong Point. They'll be my two fashion advisors. Haha! No la. We'll just do random shopping and sit down for a chat. John will also join in at 5pm, before we dapao good food for our cell at his place. We'll then sing aug-ang-syng to Rachael and MinMin.

I'll miss MinMin alot!! She's one sensible girl whom I enjoy talking to. We shall meet up again for her birthday. I enjoy those train rides with her, where I can spend time talking to her and hearing her opinions and looking at her expressions. Haha!

Guess we all move to a new area of growth. It'll be better. "Better in time" by Leona Lewis, who sang "we will all be better in time".

Yay! This Sunday's TBG! Jiayous to all the international crews! Go for it. I'll cheer you on! Hopefully after the show there'll be time for photo taking with them. Hehe...

I'm so blessed by the IGNYTERS last night! Cool. They did their best. Could tell all were nervous. NErves are good! Made them do their best. And I felt that Lewis kinda sounded like P.Dom in his accent. Haha. I also like the ripples, waves, moonwalk, popping that was done by Ben! He's really good at it. I've seen him done those moves during the FL's audition, and all of us just kept laughing. I guess Kat remembered those talents of him, and gave him the chance to add value to this performance. Pwah..that was like 2years ago. Good good!! In God's timing you'll perform! Jiayou Ben!!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Dear God, tell me whether is it Your will for me to go for the YA Camp. My parents aren't approving becoz of H1N1. I don't want them to worry for me. And I know if You want me to go, I will come back safely for sure. Let me know God, whether You want me to receive something from that camp. Show me Your glory Lord! Show me signs!

I'm appalled that Joyce's friend (Kenneth) has already paid for the camp when he signed up for herself and me. Oh dear. If I can't go, I have to ask Melissa to replace me, otherwise I have to pay him for a forgone trip. I'm quite upset within me. But I somehow know that things are gonna be fine. In what way I still don't know. Will I be able to go or not, I still do not know. Show me Your way Lord! How can I go to Malacca?

God.....I need You. The suspense of my parents approval is making me sick. Tomorrow I'm meeting Adeline and Emma for lunch. I want to smile and bring them joy, so that Emma smiles too. Help me God.

My new blogskin I hope will last. And not be defeated by commercial claims.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

I want to go for YA camp in Malacca. I've checked the statistics on the net. Malacca has no H1N1, but mum still doesn't want me to go. I'm praying that God, You know that whether I will get that virus or not. If it's Your will that I won't get that virus, I pray that You will assure mum that I'll be fine, and won't pull the family down into sickness. I pray Lord that You'll impart favor, faith, trust, hope in their lives. If it's Your will for me to go, make way for me to go Lord. SHOW ME YOUR GLORY. SHOO AWAY THE OBSTACLES.

Lord Jesus, You've already shown me Your glory this afternoon, as I visited my paternal grandma in NUH. She miraculously repeated the sinner's prayer with me in mandarin. I can't believe myself speaking the sinner's prayer in mandarin. It's really my first time, and it sounded really broken. Haha! But AMen to that. Continue to seal her salvation in her life! Let her have a divine encounter with You!!

Continue to show me Your glory!

Monday, June 15, 2009

I'm so so impressed and amazed at how the instructor used dance as a language to worship God, and also interpreting how God speaks to us.

We realised that many times when we lead God lead us into dancing for Him, while listening to a christian song, we're led to do a certain move or steps. Then we were taught to pause and ask God what does that step mean; what is God saying to us? It can be surrender, God is everything, rising up, lifting up, etc.

Cool! Certain moves the instructeress showed, she explained the meaning behind the moves. Eg, leaving down the baggages to God and the Cross, and then moving away from them. Wow! But I kept losing my balances after I moved back. Alamak. Bcoz it's also a kind of ballet move which I am new to.

We kept praying half way through as we were dancing. We prayed for breakthrough we wanna experience. And then we did the moves that signifies breakthrough. Which made the moves look really strong, even it's a delicate and simple 4steps.

I even saw guys who were so so passionate for God, even when they looked really scary for a start bcoz they're fierce looking. Zhui look. That's cool. The guys are dance coaches in their churches. And there's a girl who looks really like Hilary Duff. Haha!!

Friday, June 12, 2009

I'm staying SINGLE for the next 7 MONTHS.

For God to mould me and prepare my heart, my physical health, and my soul.
Help me Lord, not to be tempted during these 7 months, even if someone really good comes up to me and ask the question. Teach me how to reject.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

I am your paper plane. Take me, take me God on a trip that You've marked out for this season. Show me how You handled the storms, and prevented them from damaging my paper plane. Show me also what do You think of my paper plane. Haha. Show me also where my paper plane can go to. Show me how to fly with other paper planes around me too. Show me that all paper planes are unique, cannot be measured with comparison, just like an apple can't be compared with an orange for they are of different species. Show me that You always take care of my paper plane because You love me, and You had made my paper plane so that You can love me.

Monday, June 8, 2009

I'm feeling quite nervous yet excited about this Wednesday. Thank God for the opening and opportunity. I shouldn't underestimate God's providence and favor. Amen! But I don't put God in a box, to ask Him for that one and only place and job. I believe He has already planned everything.

I prayed that God will send me the interview only when I'm ready for it. Hence I believe that I'm already ready for the interview. But I'm also doing my part these days to read up, practise, etc.

Thank God for such nice managers from my internship company to send my advices in the email on areas I should take note on. I'm so so touched!!!!!