Last night's dream: What was I thinking? Why did I feel sort of troubled when I heard K**F** playing my song? I actually came up to him and asked, how did he get to know this song. And the reply was so...wierd. He said that R****** showed him my song. I felt my knees went to the ground, and I bowed my head and 울 . Why would I do that? And Ellen said, she knew this would happened. What?
Reality: Why would I even feel troubled? I would have only been surprised and would like to find out. And more over, I wouldn't 울 about it. What's there to 울 about? There's nothing to be upset about. Why do I feel that way in my dream?
Foundation: Why do I always long for an elder 여자 형제? When I see that others are strong, I would admire them and want to learn from them. Why is this so? Actually, all of these lies into one reason. My foundation. I am my Maker's, and my Maker is in me. My Maker is my foundation. However, when a clay wants to become something else that the Potter is making, the shape will be distorted. Then the potter has to remake it but cutting the edges. It'll be more painful. Why don't we be obedient and let Him mould it the way He want to? It'll be less painful, and lesser effort of striving and pursuing is needed. If my foundation is strong, and I know that I'm strong in Him, burnt at 1300 degrees, craved, bent, etc, I do not need an elder 여자 형제. I can stop admiring the many elders who portray outstanding traits which were given by Him. Come to the Father. That's the answer. The way. The only way.
Eun Hye: Why is it so coincidental that my name in Korean is Eun Hye? And this korean actress acted in Coffee Prince. Eh..ay..ah..nevermind. I thought I could have completely wipe him off my memory, but I guess the stain has not been removed.
Chinese Ministry: Why do I feel like going there? Each time I would pop by to listen to their songs and I would feel so warm on the inside, and sometimes I cry. As I was thinking of it, something came to my mind. What can I do for the chinese min? WRITE SONGS! I just recalled that I started writing chinese songs since 14. My classmates were puzzled at how I wrote songs, and they enjoyed hearing me. But, I didn't progress after that for some years, as I thought this is just getting no where. Studies came first. Until now, the songs I write, the chords, are all in tune to chinese melody. Going down the scale. 1645, 1734. Haha. I'll still pray about it, before I approach anyone about this.
